I re-read my previous post...
and i have to admit that... 90% of my entries.. dere's his name!

He's has always been part of my daily life...
and i won't deny that i feel lost now that he's no longer there...
It goes from the first day he enter army...
how i waited for him to book out...
the sweet thing he said...
the quarrels we had...
His SAF soccer match...
I miss those days...
and i wonder if it ever come across his mind...

I really want to know the outcome...
I hate nights..
No matter how much i laugh...
At the end of the day,
I still want him...
I still think of him...

Trust me....
he's doing this to make me hate him...
so that i will give up on him...

I just can't....
It's still painful...
Still crying myself to sleep...

nniinnaa 10:59 pm