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Friday, August 01, 2008
Is it not enough yet?

a million things that i wanna say. But it just seem that i don't have the liberty to. I'm sick of keeping it all in. I wanna cry like i always do, but it won't solve anything. I knew this was coming, yet just like a numbnuts, i let it happen. Despite the warnings, how they tried to pull me away. I just don't get it, why i don't seem to hear them talking.

Perhaps i just want to prove that what they say aren't true. I know better. I've seen deeper. and it upset me to see the one that i'm so close with at one point of time just changed. I used to be around, when i was needed, supporting from behind. Right or wrong doesn't matter, cause you know there'll be someone walking alongside with you. You will never be alone.

It really sting, just to sit back and watch as that close one life just get messed up. and while u try to reach out your hand and grasp his hands to pull him out. it just get further and further away. and that helpless feeling just creep in. and honestly, i hate myself just to sit and look but doing nothing.

Sigh. Sometimes, i wish i could just grab your shoulder and rough you up abit. maybe it will jolt you up & wake you up out of your mindless stupor. but for someone with zero responsibiliy and inability to think about others, nothing else will help. you just got to realise it yourself.

nniinnaa 12:21 am