It's my brother's favorite. and it remind me of him. and just that make me dread to celebrate raya. I may look like i dun care that he's not arnd anymore, but i do think of him. sometimes, i do cry in my room, thinking how i regret not cherishing him. When there's accident, bike accident to be precise, i do feel sad. and i'd thought maybe that's how my bro looked like during the accident.

I don't know how it's gonna be like this raya, but all i know, it'll never be the same. So much happened to me...love, life, work, family.

But i still thank Allah, for all these.. For i've grown up and become wiser. If i don't love, i won't get to know how hurt feels. If i don't lose things or people arnd me, I won't learn to cherish them. Being happy and stay strong no matter how hard things gonna be. Pray hard and smile, Allah will help, though sometimes it's gonna take time. Never stop believing, Allah don't answer to prayers straight away, and sometimes, we dun get what we prayed for... but whatever comes from Him, that's the best for us.

These are not just words anymore, not ego or trying to appear strong.. I am stronger.. and now i know wat that means.

nniinnaa 11:38 am