Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Big P and S
I think i've been putting too much pressure on myself these days.
I just don't realised this.
Trying to impress everyone and it's getting tiring.
I really really feel like giving up. But i know deep inside me, I still wanna do this.
This is what i prayed and hope for.
When i feel like giving up, i just want him to be there and tell me don't give up when we have come this far...
There are times when i did cry alone in my room, because i don't know what to do, and i feel so tired... physically, mentally...
Believe me, i'm confuse.
I just don't know which is the right thing to do. Some say this, some say that.
I've been thinking and thinking. Maybe i should just let nature take it own course.
It's at times like this that i wanna run to him....
I wanna talk to him. tell him everything inside me or how my day sucks..
But everytime i took my fone, i'll hesitate.. whether to press that green or red button..
I'll have sooo much to say, but i know, when he ans my call... I'll lose all the words...
and i'll end up asking "where are you?" when i alrd know the ans... and i get misunderstood, maybe cuz i sounded suspicious.
I feel so pressurised and stressful...
and i know it's affecting him too... Sometimes im just being unfair to him...
for acting like a brat...
p/s: I wished i could just lose my memory...
nniinnaa
1:55 pm
PD and KL trip 2008
Ramzah