Love Romantic

Monday, June 23, 2008

The signs....

Things just seem “off” or “wrong.”
You don’t feel hopeful or happy about anything in your life.
You’re crying a lot, either at nothing, or something that normally would be insignificant.
~~You feel like you’re moving (and thinking) in slow motion.~~
Getting up in the morning requires a lot of effort.
~~Carrying on a normal conversation is a struggle. You can’t seem to express yourself.~~
You’re having trouble making simple decisions.
Your friends and family really irritate you.
You’re not sure if you still love your spouse/significant other.
Smiling feels stiff and awkward. It’s like your smiling muscles are frozen.
~~It seems like there’s a glass wall between you and the rest of the world.~~
You’re forgetful, and it’s very difficult to concentrate on anything.
You’re anxious and worried a lot.
Everything seems hopeless.
You feel like you can’t do anything right.
You have recurring thoughts of death and/or suicidal impulses. Suicide seems like a welcome relief.
You have a feeling of impending doom - you think something bad is going to happen, although you may not be sure what.
~~In your perception of the world around you, it’s always cloudy. Even on sunny days, it seems cloudy and gray.~~
You feel as though you’re drowning or suffocating.
You’re agitated, jumpy and and anxious much of the time.
Your senses seem dulled; food tastes bland and uninteresting, music doesn’t seem to affect you, you don’t bother smelling flowers anymore.
Incessantly and uncontrollably into your mind comes the memory of every failure, every bad or uncomfortable experience, interview or date, like a torrent of negativity.

Red font means always..
black font means sometimes...
Strike means never...

So am i kidding you people?!
I know no one will believe me... when i said, it hurts.. its painful...
I know no one will believe me when i said i can't take it anymore...
I know ppl will just say its words... just words...
SHldn't i get more stronger? I went tru it so many times isnt it..? I overcomed it didnt i?
but why am i still feeling this way...
i know i shld blamed myself, i brought this to my own self...
it's the worst of the worst...

I'm tired.. I reli am...

nniinnaa

12:46 pm