Don't feel bad when you made a confession to a girl... It was brave of you to even say it to me... I know you called to say it verbally, if i had answered your call yesterday, i wouldn't know what to say to you.. Thanks for those nice things you said... I didn't even know that i was what you describe me as..

You are too nice, and i'm too tired to start a new r/s at this point... It's too fast... I've been loved and i've loved before... and i have fear... I've made a promise that i'll protect myself from gettin hurt again...

I rmbr how i was loved unconditionally before, someone wld do anything for me... from blue roses to that big pooh bear, anything that came out from my mouth,what i want, i would get it...A simple thing like a "Lime magazine", he would run out to the nearest shop to get one for me and the next thing i know, it was alrd on my table in class.. He even confessed his love on national radio 3 times... cuz he thought i didn't tune in.. so he made the same dedication till i hear it with my own ears.. If i was more mature at that time, i would have thank him.. instead i hurt him... i think till now, he still rmbr wat i like and what i don't... I don't want another this, where a guy would do anythin for me..

I don't asked for all this from a guy, i just want someone who can see my worth.. It won't be fair to you if i just lead you on like this... but it's just seem hard to say no to someone nice like you... but if i say yes, i know, it'll be just based on pity..

i've stop loving... i don't even rmbr how it is to love... i just feel the painful-ness of love now... Too many hurts was bestowed on me, i just feel numb and scared... but thank you for the care, concern, respect and love that you gave... I yearn for all that, but im scared to move a step forward...

Just pray, that maybe one day, it'll happen...

nniinnaa 2:35 pm